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editorial section #1

2011-08-18T01:05:00.000-07:00

my chipmunks cheeks :B

reality stepped in and slapped me in th face .

2011-08-17T06:31:00.000-07:00

i know everyone has gone throught bad break ups . im not excluded . well , technically , i nroke up in May . but due to some complications , th blow only hit recently .

ok GUYS . NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU WANT A GIRL TO STOP LIKING YOU , YOU OBVIOUSLY DONT tell them that

1. they are NOBODY TO YOU
2. that you DONT CARE ABT THEM ANYMORE
3. or , especially if tehy still like you , that you already have another GIRLFRIEND .

thts just seriously ASSHOLE-ISH , BASTARDLY AND MESSED UP TO TH MAAAAAAX . i mean , who DOES that ?

well , i'll tell you .

MY EX .

well , i'm heartbroken , of course . but life has to go on . th world wont stop tunring , time wont stop ticking , th tide wont wait .

gotta get over it , right ?

there will always be a part of me , a teeny weeny part , tht loves him cos he is my first . but , wht he said , is wht he said . i dont think he will regret it .

xoxo ,

bearguinstillhastosmile :)

FANFICTION ACCOUNT IS ALIVE (Y)

2011-08-01T06:13:00.000-07:00

hello , to the very few people who actually see this :) yes , i have a fanfiction.net account , for all those who know what it is , please support !

search my username @ bernicenglee.eusebio :)

http://www.fanfiction.net/ clickitclickit

kthxbai , xoxo

whats on my mind ? CHEESE .

2011-02-22T00:08:00.000-08:00

HERRO EVERYONE :D

i'm in love . straightforward , IKR . I cnt seem to stopping lovng this skin . SO CUTE . but , NO . thts not wht i'm in love with . and NO , i'm not mentally dating a kpop star ! >:/

well . i didn't put up a NEWYEAR! post unlike 2009 , so sorry >.< very distracted recently . i know i shld do up my tagbox and links ! i'm trying ! sheeeesh T3T I hope i'll rmb to pot more often . >< haaaaais . ohwell . just so you know . SMSS 3N8 RAAAAAWKZ \m/ loveyoubitches ! XD

MUUUACKZ .

p.s

ILOVEKWEKMINGLIANG :)

OMG , i typed 'rmb to pot' ! NO I DON'T DO POT!!! AHHHH ! I MEANT POST . XDXDXD CARRY ON .

IWHIPMYHAIRBACK&FORTH (L)

2010-12-21T21:52:00.000-08:00

Herro everybody :D

I'm BACK from the DEAD ! OHMYGEE X3 yeryeryer , lots of stuff happened while i wasnt up here posting ^^

but since i'm as lazy as evr (~~heehee~~) i will just summarise it all for you and go back to being DEAD again ~ XDDD

my last post was ... sept 10th ? since then , errr ... i went on steady with my darling laogong for another ... err . 3 months :) we still love each other luh , but lotslotslots of GOOD and BAD things happened .

we keep on breaking , then patch again&again .... sian rite ? but yea ! thts wht we did :) th stuff is all kinda PRIVY , so i wont post it here . TOO BAD FOR YOU .

...

BLEEEEH ! -sticksouttongue-

... :D *zap!*

heheheheheeee , imma BEARGUIN <3 awwwyeaa .

RWAAR ! XD

byebye everyone ~

nothing to say, everything to let go.

2010-09-10T21:31:00.000-07:00

The memories of you, not knowing I lived, not knowing I loved, not knowing I pained. I break them now. I take this numbing sadness and plunge it into the cold hard mirror of memories insignificant.

The mirror shatters. Everything was so fragile, maybe it never existed? From the searing pain in my hand to the puddle of unstopped crimson liquid on the floor, the silent track of tears fall. I don't know why they do, Fingernails dig into my skin, leaving marks that will never leave.

Pieces of fragile, broken glass lies sharp, screaming and fragmented on the floor. Nothing I can do. As far as I can see, the glass is all over the path before me, it leads to a place I need to go to.

A place where I can love again.

I take one step and I bite my lip, because the pain is not ordinary. It cuts into the soles of my feet, I bleed, tainting those beautiful, innocent memories a sinisterly enchanting red.

Two steps, three steps, four steps. I can't take it. Not the physical pain, that means nothing. But the unexplainable, shocking, white-hot pain that pierces through my heart, tearing it to bits.

But then, you come. You hold my hand, to walk again. I love you so much. The floor around me is clean, no glass. No pain. But I have to complete this journey.

I stopped loving those things about you, a long time ago. I just never got over the fact I was over you. I kept thinking I wasn't.

It will a painful. But I will get used to it.

And you'll be with me all the way.

Won't you?

with -awholebunchofmesseduptangledandcolouful- strings attached

2010-09-07T04:45:00.000-07:00

ATTACHED :D (Y) tothe sweetest little sotong in the world. EVER. and we have a famous relative. OCTOPUS PAUL. Yea, IKR, super cool. And we have 5 daughters, one suspected son xD IMMA BEARGUIN AND HE'S MY SOTONG, OHYEA, WE ROCKS. ^^

(L) YA BBY

KOREAN POP NIGHT CONCERT 2010~

2010-08-31T22:46:00.000-07:00

LIST OF GROUPS COMING TO SINGAPORE:

.BIGBANG //VIPS
.SNSD //SONES
.F.T ISLAND // _____
.INFINTE // _____
.D-NA // ______
.SHINEE //SHINEE WORLD

VIP Tickets cost $298, regulars are probably from $98 to $200, depending on the venue? Details will be announced on 8PM TODAY~! :)

This World

2010-08-24T01:42:00.000-07:00

In a fallen world, who can save the children that have strayed?

Not you, for sure. Not me either.

In this world, only three things are unchanging.

FAITH, HOPE and LOVE.

He is the only Faith, Jesus is my only Hope and God is my only Love.

SPREAD.

Wedding Dress Remix (female ver.) by Choi Hanuel aka Yours MostWonderfully Truly. FINAL

2010-05-28T08:08:00.000-07:00

I would argue
Then you would ignore me
As you’re struggling, I would only get stronger and
My heartaches behind these shadows all the time
My face brightens up as I see your smile
I worry that you might notice all of my feelings
And I get scared that the gap between us would widen
I hold my breath
Then I bite my lips and
Then I pray that you would leave her side forever.

Hey there, please oh please, don’t hold those hands oh no
Cuz you should be my baby
Please just look here, I’ve been waiting all this time, always for you.

Once the music ends, you’ll be with her forever through life and death,
I prayed and prayed that this day wouldn’t come so soon,
but I just can't forget,

The memories we once made (made.made)memories
The wedding dress she will wear (will.wear)wedding dress
The friendship we once shared (shared~) oh no

You, who never understood my feelings
Because of that, I ended up despising you
And then I wished all misfortune on you, hoping you'd realise I've always been here
But now, my eyes are dry
I try to talk to you but I realized that I’m alone
Every night, I would look back and think
If I already knew the results
Then I close my eyes
and I dream an endless dream
I still pray you would leave her side for mine.

Baby, please don’t hold those hands
Cuz you should be my baby
Please look here, I’ve been waiting all this time, only for you.

Once the music ends, you’ll be with her forever and ever and ever
I prayed and prayed that this day wouldn’t come so soon,
but I just can't forget...
The memories we once made (mademade)memories
The wedding dress she will wear (willwear) weddingdress
The friendship we once shared (shared)
oh the friendship we once shared, oh no~

By all means, be happy with her
So I can move on
Please erase me out of your heart forver
Although I tried my best but I just take it much anymore no oh~

I’ve been living the lies for too long
Yet, he would look at me and smile.

Wedding Dress (taeyang) Remix (female ver.) by Choi Hanuel aka Yours MostWonderfully Truly.

2010-05-27T18:20:00.001-07:00

I would argue
Then you would ignore me
As you’re struggling, I would only get stronger
My heartaches behind these shadows
My face brightens up as I see your smile
I worry that you might notice my feelings
And I get scared that the gap between us would widen
I hold my breath
Then I bite my lips
Then I pray that you would leave her side.

Hey there, please don’t hold those hands
Cuz you should be my baby
Please look at me, I’ve been waiting all this time.

Once the music ends, you’ll be with her forever
I prayed and prayed that this day wouldn’t come
The memories we once made
The wedding dress she will wear
The friendship we once shared

You, who never understood my feelings
Because of that, I ended up despising you
Then I wished a misfortune upon you
But now, my eyes are dry
I try to talk to you but I realized that I’m alone
Every night, I would look back and think
If I already knew the results
Then I close my eyes
Then I dream an endless dream
Then I pray you would leave her side.

Baby, please don’t hold those hands
Cuz you should be my baby
Please look at me, I’ve been waiting all this time.

Once the music ends, you’ll be with him forever
I prayed and prayed that this day wouldn’t come
The memories we once made
The wedding dress she will wear
The friendship we once shared

By all means, be happy with her
So I can move on
Please erase me out of your heart
Although I tried my best but, no oh~

I’ve been living the lies for too long
Yet, he would look at me and smile.

Abt the week so far. its tuesday....

2010-03-16T01:38:00.000-07:00

idk what to say heree except dat my cousin broke his left leg (like, HAHA-AWWW) and he's been hospitalised. sadded, i guess?

Term 2 hols baybeh! :D so happy to finally hv time to relax but....
BOOOO, hv holiday h/w!? I mean like really lah, holiday is for to relax rite!? give us h/w, denmite as well dun hv holiday rite!?

oh yea, i went to watch alice in wonderland, OMGOSH, frikkin awesome can! :)))) then aft the movie i saw ADAM LAMBERRRRRRRRRRRRRT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMGOSH so hot!! haha, but i still love my sixteen hubbies BETTEEER ;p

byebye ;;;

thtwEEird__ONee.

,, AW.

2010-02-03T04:30:00.000-08:00

OHOHO, look which blogskin is BAACK with a BAAAAAAAANG :D hello all, just posting to let you know, NO, I didn't die from depression and I'm still going to be hereto bore you lovely people to tears with my post! Awesome, no?

...

ONE MORE THING?

AH, I don't remember where to get a tagboard, PLEASE HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELP, kind souls.

----> memories lost <----- Blinding with the Radience of OurLOVE

,, AzurAA WillowWisp.

(OLEH :D!!!!!) <---*retard*

a video link // please CUH-LICK! :)))))))))

2010-01-10T04:49:00.001-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=usJ3ohIjIQ4

BIGBANG fighting!!!!!!! <3

Happeh Niu Yeah :D

2009-12-31T08:27:00.000-08:00

A new year,
a new name,

a new face,

a new voice,

a new

ME.

I thank all the love I've recieved in 2009, I think God for his unfailing mercies and unmerited favour, I thank God for everything and the only thing I can do to show it is

WORSHIP

HIM, Emmanuel, that one and only true, LIVING GOD,

WITH EVRYTHING.

I love you, dear daddy God, only because you brought me to New Creation Church (the Queueing Church! :D) and I heard of this neverending supply of Grace, Love and JESUS.

<3 frm ur be_(L)urved daughta,
Bernice :)

Line of the Daze 1

2009-12-26T22:19:00.000-08:00

B-B-BIGBANG. :D YAY, for Young Bae and Ji Yong-nii <3 <3 <3

AWESOME

2009-11-28T22:57:00.000-08:00

What matters most to me is...

God , as numbah ONE.

The one He has given to me, numbah TWO.

And lastly, all the (L)urv and (BBB)FF's I have had, since FO-EVA. :D

(L)urvs you ALL! <3

BELOVED

LOVE

2009-11-22T04:40:00.000-08:00

I love you.

Jump Around. <3

2009-11-18T23:55:00.000-08:00

Yeah, somebody get your praise on! :D

A Word Of Wisdom During Trying Times <3

2009-11-16T22:11:00.000-08:00

This is the Man who loves me. Read on to figure the connection.

Recieving spams on this blog was totally expected and I can't control what you think of me.

But have you ever thought who loves me?

If you don't know, let me tell you.

Its God.

I know that some people will read this, swear their asses off and think, 'WL, you think God loves YOU??? You siao or what lah. You did so many bad things already, who will love you?'

But yeah, He loves me.

That guy up there.

He took all my sins away, past, present future.

He loves me more than I could ever imagine loving Him.

He gave me life, He held my breath in His hand. You too.

Please don't waste the precious breath and life that God gave you.

A word from my extraordinary senior pastor, Pastor Prince was that:

'If people want to write stuff on your blog, who cares what they say? They are still mere mortal; with breath only in their nostrils. And air that escapes both ways. As long as you know you have God with you and that He loves you, don't care about what people say. They're just wasting their time'.

...

I love my senior pastor. :)))

But I love God more! :D

(L)urv,
God's BELOVE:D

KINGDOM HEARTS 358/2 Days (L)urvs

2009-10-18T05:59:00.000-07:00

WHEN YOU...

for example, get the NINTENDO DS game you've been waiting for since, let's say Oct 2008- Oct 2009, and you FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY get it...

How would you feel?

Oh, I dunno. Happy?

WRONG ANSWER.

You feel like you could take a million days of trash talk being thrown in your face, ou could jump from a 2 storey building, get paralysed from hip-down and still be happy.

It almost feels like...

A blind man.

Seeing the Sun.

For The First Time Ever.

Its

THE BEST (:

(L)urvs,
Hye-Su